Wow. It's summer and I can't even write in this thing.
Whatever.
Another few days spent in East Lansing. This was just the week for 21st. There was Katie, Ainsley, Mandy, Tyler. I think that's about it, but that's quite enough; leads to a lot of drinking.So, we spent the evenings in Woody's and in Bdubs, with me taking sips and finishing off people's Buffalo Bowls (which were quite fantastical). I realized that Seven and Sevens really need to be mixed well to taste good at all. I would eventually like to try a Red-headed Slut, just because of the name alone...but then again, come to think of it, there are a lot of bombs and shots I'd like to try just because of the names. I got to try a Mai Tai. wOOt
And, of course, the drunk conversations were real worldbeaters. Friday night/morning came to an end with Sean and Ryan having a conversation of the semantics of arguing about and knowing the usefulness of religion (specifically Catholocism). Wow. I've witnessed conversations where two people talk themselves into all sorts of circles and up the butthole of God, but I have never seen it quite so bad. Things Ryan had disagreed strongly to two minute previous is now the foundation of what was supposed to prove what he was "saying in the first place." And I felt the need to interject when both of them were WAY off in terms of Catholic dogma, but then I realized that it would do more use to tell a bunch of hyenas about the nature of the Trinity than to mention it to the two of them, so I kept my mouth shut and went to sleep.
Saturday night yielded a conversation that I think I'm a little bit tired of having: the reason why I seem to be so quiet when I get drunk. le sigh
All right, now. Perhaps this conversation is had because we have run out of other things to talk about, which is entirely possible. You can only discuss the nature of squirting so many times before that gets old. Perhaps this conversation is had because people know they can get a rise out of me when we talk about it, which seems like the most likely reason. I somehow doubt that it's had because it really interests people, but if it is, please tell me why it is so interesting. I really don't think it's anything to read into.
I talk SO MUCH during the day because when there is silence in a room, I tend to start to feel awkward. However, when I'm drunk, there's a warm fuzziness and a sense of ease, so if there's a lull in the conversation, I don't feel the need to fill it up with questions and stories. Do I have barriers up when I'm drunk? Sure, but I have barriers up when I'm sober, too, and they're pretty much the same barriers - filters, I like to call them - that I "put up" because I don't feel that saying something rude, stupid, insensitive, secretive, or whatever and then blaming it on the alcohol is any way to be a responsible person.
I really don't have that much to reveal anyway, guys. I am pretty much an open book and will discuss anything with you -drunk or sober- as long as you bring it up. I'm not going to plague a party with my childhood experiences if there's no reason to do so, but if you're so damn curious, feel free to ask. I love answering questions, so ask me.
So, you tell me: what is it that you think I'm hiding from you when I'm drunk and quiet? What is it that I'm not doing that I should be doing? Because when you tell me that I do not take advantage of situations presented to me when I'm drunk and if I opened up, I'd experience more, I get real confused as to what you mean. Give me an example, please. When has an "experience" made itself open to me while I was drunk and I didn't take advantage of it? Lord, just tell me what it is you want me to say or do.
Other than that, it was a wonderful trip to East Lansing. I played Left4Dead on the 360 and made it through an entire campaign on normal, which means I learned how to use the 360 controller. Go me! ^_^ And Topher got to dry hump me while he was dancing around, so that was...fun, I guess. I got to listen to five people playing D&D, which was an experience. I am a nerd, but I have not heard nerdspeak quite like this before. It was a lot of fun. Got to see Christine's apartment and that made me super excited because soon, Emily and I shall have one just like it. Yay! All in all, the trip was quite good. I was happy to be there for Katie's 21st.
Okay, now that I've recapped and had a rant, I shall leave everyone for another few weeks while I think of something to say in my next blog post.
take it easy. don't die. don't get raped
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